Happy New Years to YOU!
It’s been awhile since my last post. A LOT has happened since. I finally have some down time to give a blog update!
I hope my situation can help you in some way, shape, or form!
Around Thanksgiving time, I remember the Holy Spirit played a heavy sense of “something needs to change” and it was either my job, housing, daily routine, ect. It was so strong I could not concentrate and constantly when not working or sleeping would pray- research jobs, moving, and willingly surrender my life to God to wherever He wants me. I also started to not feel myself and felt isolated and would dream about being closer to family. But I really had no idea what exactly needed to change.
I do believe God’s way of communicating with us is through dreams, people, things in life, and events that happen or don’t happen.
Well then something happened. I no longer worked at Tri City Court Club. It was saddening because of the connections made and amazing people I’ve met there. But I kept my head up, also had more clarity on the sense I was feeling. God closed one door to open up something better.
One way to hear from God to know what to do next is I applied for more jobs and if this is where He wants me then I believe I’ll easily get the jobs and thrive there. But each job was a no-go and I didn’t want to settle less.
That means there needs to be a moved involved unless a miracle comes along. And with the need to be closer to family, it was calling my name.
But in the meantime I reached the lowest point of my life. All I could do is cry for help asking God, where do you want me?!?!?!?! Rent was due. I was still working at Garland’s Gymnastics getting 10 hours a week which was not enough to live. Couldn’t afford rent, to eat, gas to drive, bills to pay, and Christmas presents to buy for family/friends. I remember I had $5 in which I gave it all during offering at church, Trusting God 100%. Because He is my source. I remember going through change to buy dinner. I remember walking to places instead of driving. I even tried to sell things I owned. Oh and to move I would need someone to take over my lease that I had 6more months of. Definitely in the Word of God and in prayer constantly and doing all that I could do and give the rest to God. But honestly It was a mess. And more of the meaning of life just shined through.
A lot of friends and family contacted me through this tough time and gave support and love. I want to give a big thank you to those that reached out. It meant more than you realize.
You know when you get those dreams that are bold in your head and you remember everything about it, even if it seemed way pointless at the moment? Yes, well I had a dream of me in Gap browsing through the store and had short convo with cashier and it was just more memorable than others. Well you know how I said I needed to find someone to take over my lease to move. Well a friend mentioned a girl who is a friend of mine from Church and she was looking for a place. I messaged her, she came over the next day, and that night signed to take over the lease, finding out she is the manager at GAP! crazy how God works, right?
Then I got a call from my parents that they would move me to Colorado ASAP and have Matt my stepdad fly out to Pasco and Then we could get a Uhaul, tow my car on the back, and drive to Colorado. It was a wide open door and happened so smoothly and definitely from God, in which I said YES!
So here I am, in Colorado, and loving it. When having faith in God, He will guide you every step of the way and make things come together. It’s important to keep your head up and positivity in your darkest moments. But yes in Colorado, the fitness is really big over here. Lots of active people, and the place to pursue my passion. My family is here- I can play with my brother and sister and be more part of their lives again(9yrs old). The elevation makes it harder to breathe which will be good to become a fitter athlete. And I’m trying out a church tomorrow- to worship my father in Heaven and hear the gospel to preach it out to others
Things are falling into place. Still settling in. My health choices have not been a priority at this time of my life and probably the crappiest eating I’ve had for awhile. I’m okay with it, now that things are more settled I’ll be right back on it. No cardio for who knows how long. Weights a few times a week compared to 5-6x. Again, It will be back to the Norm soon, it’s just a big move I went through and still trying to settle.
I will update more as things start to occur. Thank you for reading. You guys are awesome!!! Have a good night,